Archive for October, 2009

Alrighty, so, after reading some poetry on TC, I’ve decided none of my friend are to ever, ever, EVER, have me ready any of their poetry. Being an English major, I’m often exposed to people whose sole means of subsitence was being good at poetry, and thus, I’ve been trained to be overly-critical and persnickity, and I don’t want to feel awkward if I don’t like your writing. Maybe you’re really good, and if so, good for you, I’m glad. But I don’t want to take the chance that you’re not, okay? Okay. Sweet.

That being said, I’m going to post my favourite poem EVER for your enjoyment.

Elegy Written in a Country Church-Yard by Thomas Gray

The curfew tolls the knell of parting day,
The lowing herd winds slowly o’er the lea,
The ploughman homeward plods his weary way,
And leaves the world to darkness and to me.

Now fades the glimmering landscape on the sight,
And all the air a solemn stillness holds,
Save where the beetle wheels his droning flight,
And drowsy tinklings lull the distant folds:

Save that from yonder ivy-mantled tower
The moping owl does to the moon complain
Of such as, wandering near her secret bower,
Molest her ancient solitary reign.

Beneath those rugged elms, that yew-tree’s shade,
Where heaves the turf in many a mouldering heap,
Each in his narrow cell for ever laid,
The rude Forefathers of the hamlet sleep.

The breezy call of incense-breathing morn,
The swallow twittering from the straw-built shed,
The cock’s shrill clarion, or the echoing horn,
No more shall rouse them from their lowly bed.

For them no more the blazing hearth shall burn,
Or busy housewife ply her evening care:
No children run to lisp their sire’s return,
Or climb his knees the envied kiss to share,

Oft did the harvest to their sickle yield,
Their furrow oft the stubborn glebe has broke;
How jocund did they drive their team afield!
How bow’d the woods beneath their sturdy stroke!

Let not Ambition mock their useful toil,
Their homely joys, and destiny obscure;
Nor Grandeur hear with a disdainful smile
The short and simple annals of the Poor.

The boast of heraldry, the pomp of power,
And all that beauty, all that wealth e’er gave,
Awaits alike th’ inevitable hour:-
The paths of glory lead but to the grave.

Nor you, ye Proud, impute to these the fault
If Memory o’er their tomb no trophies raise,
Where through the long-drawn aisle and fretted vault
The pealing anthem swells the note of praise.

Can storied urn or animated bust
Back to its mansion call the fleeting breath?
Can Honour’s voice provoke the silent dust,
Or Flattery soothe the dull cold ear of Death?

Perhaps in this neglected spot is laid
Some heart once pregnant with celestial fire;
Hands, that the rod of empire might have sway’d,
Or waked to ecstasy the living lyre:

But Knowledge to their eyes her ample page,
Rich with the spoils of time, did ne’er unroll;
Chill Penury repress’d their noble rage,
And froze the genial current of the soul.

Full many a gem of purest ray serene
The dark unfathom’d caves of ocean bear:
Full many a flower is born to blush unseen,
And waste its sweetness on the desert air.

Some village-Hampden, that with dauntless breast
The little tyrant of his fields withstood,
Some mute inglorious Milton here may rest,
Some Cromwell, guiltless of his country’s blood.

Th’ applause of list’ning senates to command,
The threats of pain and ruin to despise,
To scatter plenty o’er a smiling land,
And read their history in a nation’s eyes,

Their lot forbad: nor circumscribed alone
Their growing virtues, but their crimes confined;
Forbad to wade through slaughter to a throne,
And shut the gates of mercy on mankind,

The struggling pangs of conscious truth to hide,
To quench the blushes of ingenuous shame,
Or heap the shrine of Luxury and Pride
With incense kindled at the Muse’s flame.

Far from the madding crowd’s ignoble strife,
Their sober wishes never learn’d to stray;
Along the cool sequester’d vale of life
They kept the noiseless tenour of their way.

Yet e’en these bones from insult to protect
Some frail memorial still erected nigh,
With uncouth rhymes and shapeless sculpture deck’d,
Implores the passing tribute of a sigh.

Their name, their years, spelt by th’ unletter’d Muse,
The place of fame and elegy supply:
And many a holy text around she strews,
That teach the rustic moralist to die.

For who, to dumb forgetfulness a prey,
This pleasing anxious being e’er resign’d,
Left the warm precincts of the cheerful day,
Nor cast one longing lingering look behind?

On some fond breast the parting soul relies,
Some pious drops the closing eye requires;
Ev’n from the tomb the voice of Nature cries,
Ev’n in our ashes live their wonted fires.

For thee, who, mindful of th’ unhonour’d dead,
Dost in these lines their artless tale relate;
If chance, by lonely contemplation led,
Some kindred spirit shall inquire thy fate, –

Haply some hoary-headed swain may say,
Oft have we seen him at the peep of dawn
Brushing with hasty steps the dews away,
To meet the sun upon the upland lawn;

‘There at the foot of yonder nodding beech
That wreathes its old fantastic roots so high.
His listless length at noontide would he stretch,
And pore upon the brook that babbles by.

‘Hard by yon wood, now smiling as in scorn,
Muttering his wayward fancies he would rove;
Now drooping, woeful wan, like one forlorn,
Or crazed with care, or cross’d in hopeless love.

‘One morn I miss’d him on the custom’d hill,
Along the heath, and near his favourite tree;
Another came; nor yet beside the rill,
Nor up the lawn, nor at the wood was he;

‘The next with dirges due in sad array
Slow through the church-way path we saw him borne,-
Approach and read (for thou canst read) the lay
Graved on the stone beneath yon aged thorn.’

The Epitaph

Here rests his head upon the lap of Earth
A youth to Fortune and to Fame unknown.
Fair Science frowned not on his humble birth,
And Melacholy marked him for her own.

Large was his bounty, and his soul sincere,
Heaven did a recompense as largely send:
He gave to Misery all he had, a tear,
He gained from Heaven (’twas all he wish’d) a friend.

No farther seek his merits to disclose,
Or draw his frailties from their dread abode
(There they alike in trembling hope repose),
The bosom of his Father and his God.

Giant Floating Ear

Well, I haven’t gotten a hell of a lot done off that list. Though the Holocaust presentation only needs to be around 25 minutes, and the EndLang one seems to mostly be asking other people questions rather than actually talking for an hour, so I’m not too concerned about that. Shouldn’t be too bad. I hope.

So many people are getting sick! My sister, my dad, Dawn. I don’t want to catch the swine! D= Although, Dawn is getting the worst of it by far. I’m pretty sure God just got tired of her and is trying to kill her now. So far I seem to be good, I haven’t been feeling at all sick or anything, so hopefully I’ll be able to go through this whole thing with good health. Here’s hoping. Although, for some reason I’ve been sleeping rather poorly lately, so we’ll see. Though I did sleep in (accidentally) on Thursday and got about 9 hours, so that’s a plus?

Chris got some vampire fangs today, which he’s been pretty damn excited over, haha. It’s pretty cute. It’ll be fun if he bites me while wearing them. XD

He’s going to be moving to Vancouver on Sunday, which is pretty exciting. I’m hoping somehow this will let me go visit him before the end of December, though with school and everything we’ll see how that actually goes. Either way, hopefully he’ll be able to find a job and stuff and all will be well with the world and I won’t need to go on being hairy. :P

I don’t think I really have much more to update with. My new winter tires have studs in them? YAY!? Oh, and it’s started snowing once in a while here, by the way. LAWL SHITTY.

I feel strange. =\ Bedtime now.

-kill life-

So, list of things to do over the next month or so:

  • Endangered Languages
  1. Spalt’sin Language Nest project paper: 5 pages
  2. Term paper on Ainu language: 20 – 25 pages
  3. Seminar: approx. 1 hour long
  • Shakespeare: Early Works
  1. Memorize and perform scene from Taming of the Shrew: approx. 10 minutes long of continuous dialogue between people
  2. Term paper on function and realism of the Supernatural in Shakespeare’s plays: 8 – 12 pages
  • Holocaust Literature
  1. In-class seminar: approx. 40 minutes
  2. Term paper: 3000 words/12 pages (This is unclear, because 3000 words in 12 point Times New Roman is about 8.5 or 9 pages, not 12)
  • War and Aggression
  1. Term paper: 6 – 10 pages

Gonna keep that as a reminder of what I have to get done, because I’ve been forgetting about some of it every once in a while. So I guess I’ll cross stuff off as they get finished. Fuck my life.

Devils of Reality

Well, the biggest news as of late is Chris and I are officially together now. Yaaaaaaay! I’m pretty damn happy about that. XD Buuuut then the bad news: now he’s cut off from the internet because one of his roommates is a big fat floppy dick. =_= Aaaaaand then another one is a bit if a bitch and needs to go fix a lamp or something. They accused him of not even trying to get a job (he’s handed out about 30 resumes so far and had at least one interview, and has another one tomorrow), and said if he has no job by the end of the month, he has no home. AHAHAHAHA fuck you. He has pretty much no money for anything, either, which makes it even worse. And people have started labeling their food instead of sharing stuff with anyone, so he can’t really eat much.

So I did my good deed for the day and I had $40 worth of Timmy’s gift cards mailed to him via Xpresspost, so it should get there in about a day or two, so he’ll be able to have a few decent meals. And I can reload them online if need be, too, so that’s good. I figured it was a good choice because it’s cheap, but really good food, what with soups and sandwiches and so on.

I’m also working on my Shakespeare prospectus, and I think I decided on my argument. I think the supernatural aspects, like devils, witches, and ghosts, weren’t used just for dramatic effect but as a realistic cause/motivation/whatever, as well as to add a sense of realism to the drama, because of the beliefs of Elizabethan society, where those sorts of things were widely acknowledged to actually exist just as much as God and angels did. So once I got that going, all was well, and I even found a source working specifically on 1 Henry VI, which is one of the plays I had to read and thus need to focus on. So I think I should be able to get this done well enough for tomorrow. And it’s only a page and a half to two pages, and I thought it was two and a half to three, so that was a nice discovery.

I don’t think I have much more to update at the moment. Field trip tomorrow!? Midterm on Tuesday!? Annotated bibliography due Thursday!? AHAHAHAHAHA I hate next week.

Atarashii kuruma ga aru!

Well, finally got a new car. Gots me a green Honda Civic, and I am super pleased with it. =] I came home one day and my parents had gotten a car for me with the money from the old one, so that was pretty awesome. I loooooove driving it, though the gas petal is a bit touchy. You need to use a lot of force to move it, but you BARELY move it and you start going. I push it in about an inch and I’ll be speeding on the highway. But now that I have it, I just wanna go driving in it. XD Oh well.

Ummmmm things with Chris are going great. We’re planning for him to come up around my birthday and New Years, though we’ll see if that actually works out like that or not. Hopefully it will. He has to play pictionary! He never has before! DDDD= -distraught-

And, plans for Get Jimmy Drunk Night (hereafter GJDN) are going well so far. As far as I know, it’ll be at my house for lack of a better place offered. There shall be Marwiio Kart and other games. In theory, it’ll be me, Jimmy, Dawn, Danny, Brian, Chris, Steven and his girlfriend, Charles, and maybe Kelvin. Should be good times.

Well, that’s what I’ve got for now. Until next time.

It’s a lion!

Ah jeez. I’m a bit retarded. Long story short, I thought a plant in my house was a lion this morning, and got prepared to punch it. Why I thought there was a lion, or why I thought punching it would do me ANY good at all, I don’t know. I’m going to chalk it up to early morning grogginess.

Um, I think Chris is getting in a mood again. He asked me if I was saving myself for him or something, I said I don’t know what I’m doing at this point because I’m essentially still in a limbo of emotion and logic and so on, and I don’t know if I said something badly or he mis-interpreted or what, but he seemed rather… displeased and left in a hurry. He seemed to take it as a no, when it wasn’t. It just wasn’t a yes, if that makes any sense. What I feel and want is complicated, since part of me wants to be with him, and another part knows I’m just not in the right place to be in a relationship at the moment. And I certainly don’t want to do another relationship with someone I’ve never seen face-to-face yet, so it’s all sort of a moot point right now, anyway. He brought up how his “habits” bother me, which they do, but I know full well that I would just take my usual “suck it up, princess” attitude to it and try to drag him back. Not the most effective method, but there really isn’t one that is, anyway. Should we try again and actually have a relationship, and it work, and he started to do that stuff, I’m perfectly capable of reacting to it and not just getting all, “Oh, no, don’t! -weep weep-” and pleady, and if it got to it, I COULD pick up and leave if I couldn’t handle it anymore. I wouldn’t like it, but I’ve done it before. So basically, I think I should be left to take care of myself. I don’t think he should risk giving up on anything good waiting for me, but like I said, it wasn’t a no. It just isn’t able to be a yes, yet, either.

On a totally unrelated note, I’m getting about $5600 for my car, which is around what we were expecting, so now I get the fun of finding a new car. Hopefully I can find something from 2000 or later that I like that’s in my price range. Here’s hoping.

Lithops effect

Well, it looks like my plans for Jimmy are going to be go. Steven wants to do it as well, and Jimmy seems excited about it, so woo. I’ll need to start planning details and such soon. And make sure I book the next day off of work, since knowing them they’ll make me work on the holiday.

Hm… my weekend was pretty good, overall. I won’t go into detail, but I enjoyed myself for the most part. Although, a few ghosts decided to show up that I had to deal with, but that was easily enough done, so all should be well now. Chris headed to Vancouver to visit Greg and basically went shopping and got his lip pierced, haha. So it was fun hearing about that, too. Speaking of which, Danny wants to get his lip pierced for his birthday. I think it’ll look funny if he does, but he’s welcome to try it. If it works, good, if it looks funny, he just needs to take it out and let it heal. No big deal. Though Tyler is very, very against it, for his own special little reasons.

I’ve been tired lately because I’ve been having weird dreams lately that have woken me up. Not nearly as bad as the flower one that I had recurring a while ago, but all the same. I can’t remember details of this most recent one very clearly, but I vaguely remember seeing my fingertips brush along the side of someone’s smile (I can’t see who, or if I could I don’t remember), and seeing it slowly vanish in front of me. Then everything gets all bright and I feel like I’m watching something, even though all I can see is white, and I keep watching one area as if I expect something to show up there. I’m not quite sure why that woke me up and bothered me, but it did. Weeeiiiiird.

I want a day where I can just sleep in. I haven’t had one of those in quite a while now. I’ve always wondered how many phantoms you can file away, like memories and dreams, never changing.