Well, the trip to Vancouver was mostly a success. Craig’s place kinda scared me with how dirty it was, and it was uncomfortable on the couch, but oh well. We managed. Playland was a lot of fun, though we had to hold ourselved in on the wooden rollercoaster because we were getting lifted out of the seats in some of the drops. And the Hellevator was good times as well. The downside, however: sunbuuuuurn. ;_; Though we got some epic scenery and storms on the way home, so that was pretty cool. I love how freaking awesome and pretty Hope looks when it’s misty and such outside.

I feel a bit odd lately. I think I’ve gotten back some of the emotional control I’d kinda given up when I was with Robbie, since lately I’ve noticed I’ve been able to… let’s say will stuff to go away, whereas before I couldn’t seem to do that, even though I used to do it all the time. I think this means I can make myself stop feeling things again if I need to. Whether that’s a good or a bad thing remains to be seen, I guess, but whatever, haha. We’ll see.

My parents are going out of town for a few days starting tomorrow, so Kel is gonna come over after work on Tuesday, and we’ll do… something. Don’t know what yet. We’ll probably just play it by ear, I guess. Good times shall be had, though. I don’t know if Amber is gonna join us or not, since I didn’t ask, but whatever. Either way.

I’m sooooo pleased to be sleeping in my own bed again. <3

Well, there’s like… 4 different fires happening, one of which is pretty close to Dawn and me. So far, we aren’t evacuated, but we might be. It’s still being looked into. Biggest fire is in Glenrosa, then there’s one near Fintry, then near the airport, and now one near the Rose Valley Dam, which is around a KM away from me, over the mountain. Soooo I guess we’ll see.

Well, my nightmares have stopped now. I had one that kinda continued on over a couple nights, but after I talked to Robbie about it, and a little to Calvin as well, it kinda turned good in the end and went away. So I’m sleeping well again, and my appetite has come back, so I’m quite happy about that.

I decided to spend $80 on a shirt that REALLY isn’t worth that much, but is designer, so has the price tag. I feel guilty already and I haven’t even gotten it, but oh well. I’m sure I’ll be happy with it once it gets here. Starving ethiopians can bite me. Nice thing about being a man is I can shop for something without having to try it on. I know I’m either a small or a medium, depending on the fabric and whether or not it’s pre-shrunk. And speaking of clothes, Kel, Amber, and I are going out shopping today after they’re done work for some new clothes, since most of my shirts and stuff are more for cooler weather, and I have little I can wear in the summer, so I need some new stuff. And I need a new pair of dark jeans, since mine are getting a bit ratty.

After that, we’re gonna go to Kel’s for a movie night, which we’ve never done because his place is kinda small, being a trailer home. But his parents are supposed to be gone today, so we’re gonna be able to fit and good times should be had. Not sure what we’re gonna watch/drink, but yeah. Which reminds me, I should see IF we’re gonna drink, because if we are I don’t wanna be responsible for driving anyone home. I’ll just stay the night or something. Though I guess I wouldn’t drink much as it is, anyway, so I guess all is well.

Robbie and I are back to talking pretty often again. At least as much as we can over text message, haha. So that’s pretty sweet. We’re still planning to visit one another, so we’ve been thinking up new stuff we can do, or else new ways to do some things we were gonna do, either or. I’m still looking forward to it, haha. And I don’t remember if I mentioned this or not before, but he’s with Katy now, and though I’ve only talked to her once, she seems nice enough. Though apparently things aren’t as smooth as they were right when it started. I’m not going to go into detail because it’s not stuff for me to share, but I guess to be honest, while I’m happy for him and I hope it does work somehow, I don’t really think it will from what I’ve been told. I just don’t think she’s really committed to being his girlfriend as she should be. Which I know is kinda a weird way to put it, but it makes sense to me and I’m just putting my thoughts out. Either way, hopefully his parents don’t turn out to be right. So if you read this, Robbie, good luck! I’m rootin’ for you! Or… something. o.O Whatever, point is, I hope whatever happens, it works out for the best.

Speaking of Robbie, it was raining a lot there yesterday, and I told him to go do something exciting and make sure he didn’t drown, and then I had a dream last night where I was told he drowned and then I went to sleep in the dream, so when I woke up this morning I was really freaked out for a few minutes before I was sure it was a dream. I felt a bit stupid after that. XD

Hm… I wonder how a few things are gonna play out. Not gonna go into detail, again because it’s not the business of some of the people who read this, but yeah. And there are questions I want to ask some people, but I’m not sure if it’d be a good idea. I don’t wanna screw up things that are already weird, haha.

I hate it when people have “friends” who lie to them all the time, and they keep being friends with them. I mean, it’s one thing if it’s a little white lie like telling someone who really likes a shirt that looks awful that they look fine, but I’m talking about big stuff. Call me crazy, but I like people being honest with me, and I prefer to be honest with them. Same with when people go on about how they want to ask a question, but they don’t want to do it because it might make things awkward. If it could actually cause a problem, that’s a different story, but I don’t see why you should feel awkward about asking a friend a question. Especially close friends. If Robbie or Dawn or Danny ever wanted to ask me a question they were afraid might make things weird or awkward or something, I’d rather they just do it and get an answer than sit on it and let it bug them.

I think that’s all I have to say for now. OH, except a took some new pictures, which I’m pretty sure almost everyone who reads this has already seen, but whatever. And Robbie said something really nice about one of them and made me get all smiley and stupid. XD (SHUT UP, it was sweet and made me happy. Don’t you judge me. -15 year old angst-)

[1:30 AM]

Aaaand I also spent another $80 on clothes (three shirts, some new jeans, and a belt, which is MUCH more reasonable), aaaand bought a new camera, a Canon Rebel XS. Puuurdy nice. And then we ended up going to Amber’s to watch movies, since she and Kel’s parents aren’t exactly getting along. And I spoke faster than I thought again and said something stupid and I’m sorry Danny. >_<

Well. The past little while has been kinda shitty. I’ve been having nightmares almost every night for the past two weeks, so I’ve gotten very poor sleep for the past little while. And I’ve got 6 shifts in a row at work, which hasn’t been helping. I finally get a day off on Tuesday and I’m quite looking forward to it. I hope I can finally get a good sleep if I have nothing to do in the morning.

My mood has been up and down for the past little while, as some of you may or may not have noticed, but it’s getting better and it’s nothing to worry about. It’s just been a bit depressing seeing the kindof… prospects I have here. As I mentioned before, high standards, and very, very few who might meet them.

A friend of mine, Angel Yates, died a few days ago of as-yet unknown causes. I haven’t really talked to her much over the past few years, but all the same, it’s been really sad knowing she’s gone. I feel so badly for her husband and daughter; I can only imagine what it’s like for them to go through what they must be.

Hm… Calvin and his friend Kellein are going to be up here for his birthday, so we’re going to basically have a guy’s night at my house in lieu of a birthday party, and the three of us, Danny, and Kelvin are basically gonna play videogames, eat junk food, and drink. Because we can.

I could use a nice big hug lately. <.<

So, we’re moving the trip to the PNE to later so we can get two days to do it, and thus have a whole day to go on the rides and stuff. I guess I can go on the ones I want to a few times or something. Whatevs, now we might be able to take one more person with us. We’ll end up spending the night at Craig’s, which will be… interesting. One bed, two couches, and a recliner. Which means one or two people will be on the floor, haha. Oh well, now he’ll be able to come as well, and I guess the other person will probably end up being either Tyler or Kelvin, we’ll see.

Ummm, in other news, I wish my standards weren’t so ridiculously high sometimes. But I know I wouldn’t be able to lower them, even if I wanted to, because then I know I won’t ever be completely happy. Blehhh. I guess I’ll have to hope for the best? o.O

“Suddenly” makes me happy and sad at the same time. But it’s preeeeetty. -sway-

So, we’ve decided to take a day trip to Vancouver on Tuesday to go to the rides at the PNE, because dammit, WE WANNA RIDE. And to top it off, afterwards we’re gonna meet Craig and go have dinner and visit with him, and then we’ll head back home. We’ll be leaving at about 7:30 in the morning, I’ll go get Dawn, then Danny, then we’ll head through Peachland and get Nick, then be on our way. And we’re gonna make food the day before to save money on the way there and once we get there, so we won’t need to buy carnival food. And I think for $30 for the entire day, it’s a pretty good price.

The rides look pretty good on the site, too. So I’m soooo excited. We’ll probably be home around 1 AM, I figure, since we’ll visit with Craig until around 9 and then head back this way.

I REALLY wanna go on the Hellevator. Just sayin’.