Well, for the past couple days I’ve been trying to help myself get over my feelings for Robbie by trying not talking to him for a few days, since we’ve done so almost every day since we met, and that includes after we broke up. It’s not because I don’t want to talk to him for some reason, because I do, but I want to go back to being friends and that’s hard if I have trouble letting go. So far, it’s been helping, so I should be okay to talk to him again soon without worrying about getting all woe-is-me and so on.

Even after this, just with how well we know each other, he’s one of my best friends, and that’s not gonna change, so all should be well on that front. While not to the same extent they had his, the distance had started to take its toll on my feelings as well and they had been starting to fade starting a while ago, so that’s probably why this is so much less… messy than last time. Well, aside from the obvious difference, haha. I’ve kinda accepted that I’ll probably always have just a LITTLE bit of feelings for him, but I know that with how stuff changed over the past little bit, as long as we’re this far away from each other it couldn’t ever really work, anyway. Though I still wanna go up there to visit, and have him come here, just for the sake of hanging out, but that’s it. Maybe sometime down the road, in a few years, when we’re financially secure enough that distance could be eliminated, something might come back between us. Or, maybe this is the end and we’re just going to be friends from now on and find different people. Who knows? Maybe it’s not meant to be, maybe it’s not meant to be right now. Either way, I have no intentions of sitting here and wishing to go back and so on, because that’ll make no one happy.

Aaanyway, I guess that whole schpeal was just to tell anyone who’s interested that I’m doing fine and if Robbie somehow reads this on his phone, we’re all good.

Also, Dawn’s birthday soon! And her birthday party thing soon after! I got her present the other day, so hopefully she likes it.

Robbie and I are taking a break to think things over. He’s not sure if this distance and lack of communication is worth it, and I’ve honestly wondered the same thing lately. We’ll see how this goes. I hope for the best, but if not, I can accept it. Either way, I’d like a hug.

[1:50 PM]

Well, it’s official. We’re over, probably for good this time. Can’t say I didn’t see it coming, though. He was acting the same way he was when he got feelings for Amie, so I kinda had a clue. Can’t say I’m not sad, because I am, but I think I can handle it better this time. Thanks for the good times, Robbie.

We’re going back to being friends, like we started out, so it should be fine.

Well, I guess first off, I hate all the distance between Robbie and me. His computer’s being broken has made it even more pronounced. I miss him a lot, since we generally have to make do with text messages, as he can rarely get on MSN . We had a bit of an issue a little while ago, probably partly because of that, but it looks like we’re in the clear now, I hope.

Anyway, I took more pictures. This time not right after work, so I look better than I did in them. Yayz.

(Shut up, the last one seemed like a good idea at the time. Robbie said it’s hot. He might be lying, but whatever, it’s the thought that counts. XD)

Alright, said I’d take pictures of the new hair, and here they are:

There we be. I know it kinda looks bowl-cutty in some pictures because you can’t see the sides and back, but I promise it’s not. XD

So, I finally did it. My hair has been cut, and it’s short. Like, I have bangs now that go just a bit past my eyebrows, then it gets gradually a bit longer towards the back, which ends just below my earlobes. I actually like it a lot, so woo. And Robbie’d better, too. XD

I’ll take pictures sometime soon, when I’m not hanging out with Dawn and Danny and Sarika and such.

OMG I CAN’T SEE MY BEAST OF A FOREHEAD ANYMORE WOO.

Though now, since I have oily skin that I KNOW would make my hair gross from past experience, I’m gonna have to buy some powder foundation stuff that absorbs oil and use it on my forehead and such. Sorry, Robbie, but I’m gonna have to be girly and wear a little bit of makeup to keep my hair from getting greasy. It’s for a noble cause.

So YAAAAY, Robbie doesn’t have breast cancer! I still get to give both nipples some love!

On that note, I got our bed restraints the other day. I’m so pleased. They’re furry and soft and awesome. :3

I also got approved for a Master Card. Weeeee. Figured it was about time I did that, haha. So I can have good credit later on and stuff. So woooooo for BMO. Which of course means my mom did her banker thing and told me all the risks and what I should and shouldn’t do, all of which I already knew anyway because I’m not stupid enough to apply for one of these without looking into all this stuff, but whatever. Though she did give me the good idea to just move money from my chequing to my savings whenever I use it so when the bill comes, I’ll know I have it there, and it’ll look in my chequing account the same way it does with debit, so I don’t need to worry about overspending.

Ummmm been having cute lovey-dovey conversations with Robbie lately and I love them. And he’s pretty much the hottest man in the world and I love him. <3

That’s all I got so far. Oh, except I bought shorts, and they’re glorious, though my legs could blind you in direct sunlight.