Apparently, I remind Robbie of cows humping. =[ -feelsfatlikeacow-

So Dawn and I spent a good chunk of yesterday writing our RIDICULOUS Japanese play. Basically, we’re royal siblings from the Snake family (who love all sorts of animals, especially cougars, bears, and chinchillas), and a magical talking cougar eats our parents. It was sent by the Bird family, who was really the Cougar family. So I go out to kill the cougar and the Cougar family in revenge, and after setting a trap and waiting in a tree for two days (because this is a MAN’S JOB) the cougar becomes ensnared. It tells me that the Bird family is actually the Cougar family, but I have to kill it anyway. So then, I go pray at a temple, then I sneak into a garden. There is a chicken in the garden. I hit the chicken and it becomes unconscious. (I really just wanted to say “Niwa niwa niwatori ga imashita”) I sneak into the palace, find the Cougar family’s sleeping chambers, and after shouting, “I AM THE SON OF THE SNAKE FAMILY!” I kill them and return home. Dawn and I get ready to celebrate, then we remember our parents are still dead, so I end the play with, “Ah, shit.” in Japanese.

So now I need to try to memorize as much as I can for Wednesday, which will be just AWFUL. But I’ll give it a shot. Also, goddamn kanji quiz tomorrow. Nooooooo. =[

Hopefully Robbie is able to get a job sometime soon-ish, since if he can’t he won’t be able to come down in the summer, since that’s too much  money to spend without some source of income. I’ll be sad if he can’t come, but of course I understand that it’s quite expensive as it is. So here’s hoping!

Lately, I’ve been in an exceptionally good mood in the mornings. Probably mostly because I look forward to talking to Robbie in the morning, but still. I like being happy in the morning. Woo!

Something unhappy: My left eyelid is STILL TWITCHING. FUCKING STOP IT. STOP IT NOW.

-dance- This song has been stuck in my head all day. Damn you, Paramore.

Anyway, my family came home today, and it was also my sister’s birthday. She’s 18 now. I don’t like it one bit. Also, her boyfriend Kieth was over, and I decided I generally approve of him. He’s a bit adorable in person. You look at him and you just want to squish his face and make baby talk.

After finding some leftover Valentine’s day chocolate I bought because it was on sale, I realized I’ve actually never celebrated it before. Which is kinda silly. When I was dating Miranda way back when, it started after February was over, and ended before it came around again, and same with Mitch, and now Robbie and I were split up in the time around it. Wtf. I want at least one, goddammit! Oh well. Next year?

I am so neurotic. I ended up making a pattern as to which tiles I could walk on when I was at my Oma’s today, and that made me think of the xkcd comic that talks about it. And then I thought about it and realized I do that all the time, unconciously, and I feel like I’ve been somehow wronged if I step on a tile that isn’t “okay”. Same with the cracks in sidewalk blocks. And when I feel a warm spot on the floor for whatever reason, I imagine there might be someone lying down underneath it. Why? Why do I think of this crap?

Apparently, Robbie and I are a good balance for one another. He says he has a short temper and a lack of patience, whereas I have virtually no temper and an inhuman amount of patience (except for jigsaw puzzles). And I’m always warm, whereas he never warms up. He believes in Jesus/God, I… well. I wouldn’t say I DON’T, per se, but I make no claim one way or the other. I think if there isn’t any higher power or whatever, then I don’t care and it doesn’t matter. I can live life perfectly fine with things being pure chance. And if there are, I don’t know if it’s one thing or many things, but I don’t think it/they require acknowledgement and worship because I’m sure they have better things to worry about My guess is that if there’s such a place as heaven and hell or some other variety of afterlife, as long as you live a generally good life, then you’ll go to the heaven-or-heaven-equivalent. And if you just die, then that’s okay. You’re dead, not like you’ll care. Hm, what else… he’s conservative, I’m liberal (for the most part), he’s pro-life, I’m somewhere in the gray area depending on circumstances and ideals and such. He’s nice, I’m a jerk. I’m sure there’s other stuff, too. Opposites attract? (Though, then why are we supposed to look for people we have things in common with? They don’t mesh, platitude makers!)

After he comes down in the summer, I’m gonna go look for a new job. I need more money. I’m sick of Zellers and their poor pay. Sick and tiiired.

Bringing that thing about my always being too warm into example, my room needs to cool the fuck down. This is ridiculous. I have the window open and it’s still too hot in here.

I think I’m paranoid a little.

Well, Kel came and stayed the night on Monday so we could play more RE5, because I’m obsessed like that, and that was good times. Good LORD that boy is a loud snorer, though. Yeesh. And then yesterday, Danny came over and we played some more from where WE left off, but we weren’t quite able to finish the game because it was late and, of course, school today. So we’ll have to do that some other time.

My family comes back on Friday. Nuuuuu. D<

Um… I only really have one more thing to say for now, I guess: I am VERY MUCH looking forward to something Robbie and I talked about yesterday. He knows what it is. XD

So, I bought Resident Evil 5 yesterday when Danny and I went to the mall. Then we came back here and ended up playing until one in the morning. It’s a pretty sweet game, and it’s MUCH better two player. Computer-Sheva is an ammo waster and a stupid bitch and I hate her. Also, there’s so far only one good black person besides Sheva. Lulz videogame racism. So tomorrow, Kel is coming over and spending the night so we can play, and then I’m gonna drop him off at the bus when I get there to head to school, and Danny may or may not join us, I’m not sure yet.

I decided that I’m gonna go job hunting after Robbie’s come down. That way I can make sure I get the two weeks, and then I can go get a new one and should be able to take two weeks NEXT summer so I can head up there. If all goes as planned, home entertainment will be down two employees by August, since Dominique is going to be moving. Leaving only Roxanne, for the time being. Ohohoho.

Speaking of Robbie, I haven’t talked to him all weekend and I miss him a lil’ bit. D= /clingyyyyy

Speaking of things that sound like Robbie, Robby talked to Connor again for the first time in a long time. (Robby is Connor’s ex, not to be confused with my Robbie, who is infinitely better) So now there’s some dramatic shit goin’ down, since Connor still loves him, but he’s also with a guy named Dylan right now, so I’m trying to make sure he at least breaks up with Dylan first if he goes back to Robby. Hopefully he’ll choose this time to not be an ass.

I really haven’t got much to say today, except this: I spent some time this morning talking to Robbie. (ACTUALLY talking, as opposed to via text). All I have to say is, OMG I LOVE HIS ACCENT IT’S SO HOT EEEEEEEEEEEEEEE. That is all. Thank you.

Alright, so, I spent the day taking part in my friend Greg’s psych experiment where he was looking at modesty across cultures. I was asked to let people ask me any question they want, and I either had to answer honestly or stop, and let him know either the question and answer or the question and why I chose not to answer it. Needless to say, I found none I wouldn’t answer. But, here’s a sample, in QUESTION (ANSWER) format:

Would you sleep with me if you got the chance? (No, I have Robbie and I like him better.)
How big is your penis (I answered, but anyone who  needs to know already does, and those of you who don’t probably don’t WANT to know)
How do you feel about embryonic stem-cell research? (I don’t consider them to be “alive” until they can do basic functions such as heart beat and breathing without being attached to the mother. Though they don’t necessarily need to be able to do them well enough to live without support, just be able to do them.)

What are your feelings towards other races? (In general, I don’t care; sexually speaking, I only really like white or pale latino men, otherwise I find it a bit… I guess uncomfortable is the best word for it.)

Have you ever done drugs or smoked or anything of that nature? (I’ve drank and I tried smoking once when I was 15 and that was far more than enough for me. Ew. Drugs are a no-no.)

Most of the rest were along those lines. On a different note, I took a few new pictures in class the other day (in the new white shirt I bought) because I didn’t care for the ones in my blue doctor shirt, and then I took two more tonight with the bear Robbie gave me for my birthday because I love that thing soooo much and I’ve been meaning to take pictures with it. So, I did.

Also, I finally felt well enough to drink some of my vodka, and now I’m tipsy and it’s been a while. I forgot I could feel my teeth when I’m like this. Which might sound weird to some people, but it’s true. I’m VERY aware they’re there. But I can still spell properly and stuff, so HA to those who end up like “I hayt goeng too ze stor bcuz der r 2 meny typs uf bred” or some such thing. CAM WINS.

Anyway, here are all the new pictures. APPARENTLY, my smiling looks unnatural. =_= Also, by popular opinion, my new striped shirt looks good on me. So I guess get more? :

Make sure Robbie tells me about his inventions/ideas sometime. (I’m not gonna forget, Robbie. )

The two of us cuddled up while being showered by hard-falling snow.
Our entwined fingers were confirming our love, I think.

So that the freezing cold doesn’t chill these thoughts
I want to send them to you on my white breath, before this night ends.

I won’t forget the lips that took away the warmth left in my heart
Even though we’re far away from each other, the one thing that I won’t lose is this love.

Chasing an endless dream, we’ve come here together
Kidding around I said,
“I think maybe I’ll run off by myself…”

The tears spilled from your downturned eyes.
It’s just a joke so, wipe those tears and smile.
I won’t give up.

I won’t forget the kindness you gave me,
Nor the pain that almost destroyed me
Even though we’re far away from each other, the one thing that I won’t lose is this love.

If my feelings change into snow, I can send them off to where you are right now.
But even if we don’t see each other, I’ll continue to love only you.

I won’t forget the lips that took away the warmth left in my heart.
Even though we’re far away from each other, the one thing that I won’t lose is this love.

(Shut up. I like it.)

Alrighty, so, after school today I went to the mall with Kel and Amber, since everyone else was going to play DnD. We did some shopping, and I got two new button-up shirts, since I only had one before. I now have a new black one, and a matching one in white. I’m not sure what I’ll wear the white one with yet. I have to see which pants it goes with, though I can just wear a black undershirt with it, so that’s a plus. Might end up only working with the black jeans, but we’ll see.

After that we went to the food court, ate, then went to Dairy Queen, ate some more, then decided to go to the late showing of Friday the 13th. To kill time, we stopped at the liquor store so I could grab myself some vodka (they had the one I wanted in! Yay!), but that was actually a rather unpleasant trip. Amber came in with us, and of course she’s underage. When Kel was going through, they wanted to see ID from her because they figured he was buying for her. So that had an argument, and they left. He WASN’T buying it for her, but I figured whatever, that isn’t my problem. I had my ID and whatever, but then the guy I assume was in charge there was like, “You’d better not try coming in and getting their stuff, too. Tell your friends not to come in here if they’re going to try things.” Now, I can understand if he just told me not to try to buy what they were going to as well. That would just be doing his job. But he had a very distinct “or else” tone in his voice that I really didn’t much appreciate, so I gave him a look and said, ” Excuse me? Considering you see me standing right here and know what I look like, that would be a pretty stupid thing to do, wouldn’t it? He wasn’t going to buy it for her, but whatever, that isn’t my problem. They can do whatever they please. But do not talk to me like I am an idiot, is that clear?” He apologized to me after that, so I just said thanks and took my stuff and left. What an asshole.

Anyway, after that we hung out at my house for a little while, then went to the movie. It was pretty good, as far as slasher movies go. Didn’t scare me, but movies never really do. I recommend seeing it, though, since it did have a few parts that might make you jump. Lots of popping out of nowhere and whatnot.

I can’t think of anything else to update on, really. Robbie said something really nice today before I left for my last class, so I’ve been in a pretty good mood because of it. Other than that, I guess I’m done. So g’night.

So today was Robbie’s birthday. He’s 19 now! Yaaaaay! Only one year of teenhood left, though. Just wait until you hit 20, babe, you’ll know how I feel. He said he loved the gorilla I got him and the webcam, so that made me happy. I was afraid he wouldn’t, so that’s always a nice thing in the day.

And I got to see him on said webcam for the first time since before he went off to basic training. I’d forgotten how ridiculously goodlooking he is.  I dunno how I got him, because he’s a few numbers above me on the scale. I must be REALLY funny.

So this means we’re gonna try and kick the distance a bit and talk over Skype fairly often, just so we can actually see and hear one another. Not the same as face-to-face, but it’s much better than nothing. I’m really excited to hear him again; I love his accent. Mmmmm British. ~_~ (I don’t know how to describe his particular accent to anyone, but it’s not hoity-toity snobby English sounding or anything, so don’t imagine that)

Random: FREE TANK OF GAS FROM MY MUM! Yusssss payment for picking up Caitlin. Saves me like… $60. And thanks to Potato, I have a craving for vodka, so I might take those savings and go buy myself a bottle. Because we all know how much I drink. Hurr hurr hurr.

I am VERY excited for what tomorrow might bring. I’m not gonna say what it is, but if it turns out to be possible, I’m going to be insanely happy and may have a lot of trouble getting myself to go to school. XD (The person who needs to knows what I mean)

I want to go get my hair cut. So I’m probably gonna aim for when my family is out of town, and I’ll drag Dawn at least, and maybe Danny along. And whoever else wants to come and see me get like… 8 inches of hair removed, at least. I’d probably like something around lip to jaw length, maybe a tad longer depending on the style, but not tied back anymore. And I want bangs. I have too much forehead. D=

Another slightly random note: I consume negative calories every day. Lawl. Go me.