Well, as predicted, summer is relatively boring, and thus no real reason to update. Work is work, not work is not work. Granted, Shay and Shane are down visiting, so we went to Sun-Oka yesterday, and that was quite fun. I enjoyed swimming for the first time in ages, and it was adorable to see Shane frolic. And I’m pretty sure I’ve moved up the scale from vampire-white to eggshell or something. Not a lot of improvement, but improvement none-the-less. And now Danny has gone home to Mexico, so my main hangout buddy so far for summer is gone with that. Not sure why, but haven’t seen much of Dawn or Sarika or anyone else since school ended. Hurph. Gonna be going to Dawn’s birthday thingy on the 27th, and HOPEFULLY I can get the 28th off. I remember agreeing to renew my first aid certificate, but I can’t remember on which day. It might be the 25th, but it could also be the 28th, which would suck because it’d mean I have to be up early. Though nothing is written in Francine’s book regarding me having any day off, so maybe it’s just not happening now for some reason. Though if no one says anything to me, I might just conveniently “forget” about it.

Anyway, in future plans, I’ve booked off the week of the 15th of August, up until the 22nd, during which I intend to go camping with Kelvin, and then in theory meet up with Shay and Shane for the end of it. We’re not 100% sure where we’re going yet, but Shay mentioned Klein Lake, and the more I look at it, the more I like it, so I’m gonna suggest that next time I see Kel, or talk to him online. Downside, though, is that it’d probably be a 7-8 hour trip to get there; about 5 to get to the ferry, an hour ferry trip, and then an hour’s drive after that to get to the campsite. And they don’t take reservations, so if it’s full, I dunno what’ll happen. Gonna have to ask Shay about that. But I wanna walk down to Ruby Lake and see otters, if I can. I FUCKING LOVE OTTERS AND I’D WANT TO PLAY WITH THEM AND OMG EEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.

That’s about all I’ve got for now. Tata.

Well. My plan was to learn how to code my own layout and make a video blog and try out recording my blog instead of just writing it, just for a change, but apparently I don’t have the motivation necessary for that. My motivation goes to exercising and that seems to be about it, but oh well, I’ll take it. So we’ll see if my finally giving up on the coding thing will mean I’ll go back to updating more often, or if I’ll end up going another month.

Moving swiftly onwards, there hasn’t been too much of real note happening lately. Work and play, mostly. Work has been special, since it seems to fluctuate between good and bad days; sometimes I’m running around like a chicken with my head cut off, sweating like mad (mostly because of the humidity from all the light showers we’ve been getting, and the fact that APPARENTLY it’s not hot in Toronto, so we get virtually no air conditioning here, which is fucking retarded), and getting frustrated with Tobi and Francine’s incessant stupid choices and decisions. Other days, I’m pretty much left to my own devices, where I can either work by myself and get things done that I want to do, or I work with Chris or Bev and get a lot done. On that note, it’s kinda nice to know people go out of their way to get Francine and Tobi to schedule me with them because they like working with me, and they do it because we always get a lot done.

Side yet related note: we got two new stock boys at work, one of whom comes and helps me out a lot and is omgwtfbbq cute. I quite enjoy oggling him while we work/talk, which I’m PRETTY sure doesn’t make me a pedophile because he’s old enough.

Because of things back home, Danny has decided to save money and stop going to the gym, and instead is doing P90X with Kel and I, which is pretty neat. It’s kinda fun to have someone else who does it, and we might try working out together sometime and see if that makes it better/worse. Figure it’ll either be a distraction so we get less done, or it’ll be more motivation via competition or some such thing. Though now his computer died (again), so he can’t really do the new stuff, and he’s not sure what he’ll be doing when he gets home for lack of equipment, but who knows.

The exercise plan’s going well so far. I took a progress picture a little while ago, and was surprised by the difference. I guess it’s one of those things kinda like when you get older and don’t notice your face changing until you look back because it’s so gradual. Anyway, yes, that felt pretty nice, so it kinda helps with the desire to keep it up, along with the fact that it’s become habitual now to do it.

Last night, Danny and I went out to see Prince of Persia, and it was pretty good. It had a couple cheesy moments, but otherwise I thought it was pretty well done, if nothing else because you get to see Jake Gyllenhaal running around in a tight top, looking all athletic and stuff. Afterward, we came back to my house and killed time for a while, and ended up going on Manroulette (gay version of Chatroulette), and wow. WOW. There is FAR too much ugly penis on that site. But eventually we came across another couple of friends from Los Angeles, and we ended up chatting with them for a little while, and they were pretty fun. Except that they kept trying to get us to make out, which was annoying and funny at the same time. The most they got was me kissing him on the cheek. After they had to go, we went through another set of about 30 fat people with their dicks out, and then came across another couple, but they got boring quickly, so we downloaded Human Centipede and watched that. Pretty stupid movie. I don’t recommend it.

Finally, True Blood starts up again tomorrow, so at least Danny is coming over to watch it, and probably Kelvin and Amber as well, as I found out I have HBO in HD, so it’ll be all nice. And a new Gackt song gets released on Wednesday, so I’m excited for new music. -obsessive-

My, my, it’s been a while. But I’m finally not busy and pulling my hair out and wishing I was dead and all that other fun stuff that comes with the end of the school year. But it’s done, and I think I did well enough, so that’s wonderful. Lovely, even. I could almost pee myself with excitement. That’s LITERALLY NOT EVEN A HYPERBOLE.

NO. BAD COMMERCIAL. It’s not pronounced “Jag-yoo-ar”, it’s “Jag-wahr”. -beats them with the Grammar Hammer-

So. Cam can has fitness goals for the summer. Now that I’ll be without the school-work combo, I should have more time to exercise properly, as while I’ve been doing it throughout the school year, it’s been somewhat half-assed because of how generally drained I get because of school and work. You know the feeling. The one where you look at anything even resembling effort and your brain goes, “But I don’t wannaaaaaaaaa~!” Anyway, it’d be nice to put on some muscle, for vanity’s sake if nothing else, and I’d like to get below 10% body fat. I also want to up my cardio fitness and hopefully be able to run at least 5 km at a time, though I’m going to aim for 10 km, since that’d be pretty awesome. Also, though this is probably gonna be a stretch, I want to see if I can get strong enough to bench my own weight. Honestly can’t say if that’s realistic or not because I’ve never made a specific point to get stronger, so we’ll see. I’ll hope for the best.

Also planning to job hunt and hopefully find something at least marginally related to editing/publishing/whatever. Being Kelowna, I’ll be surprised if there’s much, if anything, I’d be able to get without being done my degree. But otherwise, I’d at least like a job somewhere else, because the Zellhole is going downhill fast. I might try getting a job at the Superstore electronics section, since it’ll apparently be here come fall.

I got asked out by Eric. Some of you may remember him, some of you may not. Either way, I said I wasn’t looking for a relationship, which really means, “Fuck no.” Because… well. He’s Eric, and I don’t buy this sudden change of heart. And I don’t particularly find him attractive aside from that, anyway.

Hm… despite all that time, I don’t really have much to say, it seems. So I’ll leave it with this anecdote from my trip to Wal-Mart. I was driving by, looking for a parking spot, when I had to stop and stare. I saw a woman, who was an absolute WHALE, walking towards the doors with a buggy. She was wearing a bright pink velvet track suit. She looked like freakin’ Kirby, and it was frightening. We need a fashion commandment or something.

Well, this month has been decidedly unexciting, for most of it, hence the lack of updates. But may as well do one, starting with a Happy Birthday to my sister. 19 now.

Most of the time between last post and now has been life as usual. It’s the past week or so where things have actually started to happen. On Monday, I went out to coffee and watched a few movies/cuddled with Steven, who turned out to be Shay’s Steve (shapriiiiiiiize!), and that was pretty fun. Had a good time. Though his roommate invited a bunch of their friends over, which was in and of itself fine, they’re pretty nice. I’m just not used to all that homo all at once. There was a LOT of gay. I’m used to being the faggiest of the bunch, and in that crowd, I may as well have been eating beef jerky and rubbing some girl’s vag. Anyway, also went to see Shutter Island with him on Wednesday, which was again fun. Not sure how I felt about the movie. I didn’t think it was bad, but it was a lot different from what I was expecting, so I think that kinda threw my opinion for a loop.

On Tuesday, however, Cheryl, Carolyn, and Sue (two supervisors and the assistant manager, respectively) were given the boot with no notice, as has apparently been happening company-wide, all across the country. So that was pretty shocking for everyone, and we’re just getting used to the changes and are none-too-happy about any of it. I fuckin’ LOVED working for Cheryl. So that’s pretty shitty.

Since Thursday I’ve been feeling a bit depressed, for some odd reason. Can’t really say why, as it’s one of those general things that’s just enough to annoy you (I sure seem to get a lot of those), but I am. And now is a bad time for that, since I have no motivation to do anything, and a lot of things I need to do. Essays and reading and whatnot. So hopefully it either goes away quickly, or I can power through it. We shall see, we shall see.

Oh god, the ozone layer!

Yeesh, I’ve been lazy with my updates lately. Wtf Cam. Stop it.

Alright, well. What’s new. Ummmm the exercise thing has been going well and results are starting to show, which is nice. And I managed to befriend an expert in that area in general, so he’s given me some tips that should be helpful as well. Wooooo!

I picked up and have begun Final Fantasy XIII, and it’s pretty good so far. Though I’ve found the beginning levels to be very… linear. We’ll see if it changes as I progress, but it’s gonna be going on the backburner for a while because I have to do my schoolwork now. Though the Shakespeare and Hugo’s paper should be pretty easy to do, since I’ve done the research for one and the other only has to be 5 pages long, so I’m hoping to get that done fairly quickly.

It was Robbie’s birthday a couple days ago, and he’s 20 now. An old geezer like the rest of us.

I’m not pleased about Sunday. I have to work 9 – 6 in Home Entertainment, which means I’m gonna be bored out of my mind. Guuuuhhhhh.

I seem to have gotten over the crush thing, for the most part, due to some stopping and thinking on my part and realizing the pure idiocy it’d be due to past circumstances. So that’s pretty… good? I think? Yes? D= Of course, now I have something else I’m working on stamping out right at the outset, but I think I can do that fine.

On a semi-related note, I went on a date last night. And then I ended it rather quickly due to some… unfortunate things being said, and I maybe… kinda… punchedtheguyinthefaceforinsultingandpickingononeofmygoodfriendsthatweraninto. <.<

Oh, and my parents went to Vancouver for the day. Which I found out about when I went upstairs and saw the note. Which was nice of them, since normally I don’t even get a note and just find out when they don’t come home.

Alright. I’m feeling whiny, so most of this post is gonna be me being a little bitch. Feel free to ignore it. I’ll get the normal update out of the way first.

I’m writing my Shakespeare essay on “Suicide as a form of Triumph”, focusing on Anthony and Cleopatra, Macbeth, and Hamlet. I figure there’s enough suicide in those plays that it shouldn’t be much of a problem. I just hate doing the prospectus because it’s most of the work of doing an essay, except you end up having to do it again when you write the actual one. Oh well.

I haven’t seen Robbie online for a while now, and I’m not sure why. It’s unusual for him to be offline for so long. I’m sure he’s just busy, but all the same, I miss him. So hopefully all is going well on his end.

I decided that come summer, when I actually have money for it, I want to get a tattoo on my back. I want the red face design on Shiranui from Okami, except I’ll shorten/taper the top line because it’s way too long in that picture, and the eye designs I’ll probably move up to better go with the shape of my back, since there’s not gonna be any actual face there, anyway. Nerdy, I know, but I think it’s damn pretty, so shut yer face.

I’ve been on a Savage Garden kick ever since Dawn showed me that video of the British men in a pub singing “I Knew I Loved You” and I decided to listen to the original. I’d forgotten how much I like them. Shame they broke up, though I should download some of Darren Hayes’ (the singer) music, and see if it’s similar. I haven’t heard any of his solo work, I don’t think.

Mitch decided to drunk dial me about 30 minutes ago, and suffice to say I’m not pleased. Partly because I remember hearing he was moving and I figured he’d be out of my hair, partly because he somehow managed to hit a nerve pretty hard, so now I’m in a rather pissy mood and managed to clench my fist so tightly I cut my palm a little with my fingernails. Oh, so melodramatic. You’d think after 5 years he wouldn’t get to me anymore, but alas.

Okay, now is whining time. I guess before was a bit of whining time, too, but it’s not what I initially was referring to. So go ahead and ignore the rest of this if you’d like, it’s not really of any importance other than for catharsis.

I have managed to, once again, get a pretty major crush on someone I really shouldn’t have one on, for a number of reasons that I won’t go into right now. Suffice to say, this is not the first time it’s happened, both overall and with him in particular. As this seems to be a bit of a trend with me, one would think I would be able to just stop it by now, but that’s apparently just silly. Anyway, I’ve been in a state of mixed action between trying to pursue it in spite of everything and hope for the best, and trying to just leave it alone until it goes away again. Problems are: there is a possibility it could work, if things went the right way. But if I keep trying, things could take a downturn and things might just end up awkward, possibly permanently, and I’d rather not have that. If I had to choose, I’d rather keep my mouth shut and keep things the same and just deal with it. But at the same time, that border has already been somewhat crossed, and things are fine now. So therein lies part of my indecision. There is a rather large obstacle that may be in the way and certainly does complicate things further, so I’m not quite sure how to deal with that. Fuccckkk I’m stupid. I kinda wish I’d just have learned when this happened last year. But I guess at the same time, maybe my not learning will work out. We’ll see.

Well, I’m officially back from my trip to Edmonton. It was pretty good, Kel and I had a lot of fun. We went to my Aunt Sylvia’s the first day, then spent the next couple days at my Aunt Sheri’s. As planned, we went to Galaxy Land the first day, which was only okay. Half of the good rides were either shut down for maintenance or gone altogether and in the process of being replaced, so we didn’t get to go on as many as we would of liked. As a result we spent a lot of time just wandering WEM, which was okay. Plenty of exercise and talking time, if nothing else. The next day we went to the Waterpark, which was pretty fun. We spent a lot of time on the slides and in the wave pool and so on, and that took up most of the day, and we went out to dinner afterwards, which was nice. Third day was spent shopping on White Avenue, and though we didn’t end up buying anything at the end of the  day, it was a fun trip. Went with my Aunt and Grandma. Afterwards, we went out to dinner with my Aunt Sylvia and Uncle Tim so we could see them one more time before we headed home.

We had to fly back here at 7 AM mountain time (6 AM local time), which meant we’d need to be up at 5 AM to get to the airport and through security and everything else on time. So as a result, we decided to just stay up all night and save the trouble of trying to wake up and get ready that early in the morning. We came home, then headed over to Kel’s afterwards to play White Knight Chronicals for a while, and spent some time with his family. He told Amber we didn’t get in until around dinner time so he could have some time to just relax at home for a bit before going to see her. We ended up finally falling asleep for around 2 hours, then I woke up and came home for dinner and to see my family some more. And now I’m here.

Something else came up on the trip that’s probably going to play with my mood for the next little while, so forewarning to any of you if I seem a bit off. If I want to tell you about it, I probably already have, so you’ll know what it is. Otherwise, it’s not really public knowledge material, so I’m going to be keeping it to myself.

I’m in a mixed state about being home. On one hand, it’s nice to be back in my own room and to just be going back to life as normal, though on the other hand, it means back to school and work and whatnot. Also, I’ve gotten pretty used to sleeping with Kel, since we generally shared a bed to keep warm because the basements were chilly, and so I got pretty accustomed to the constant company and whatnot. As a result, I feel kinda lonely in my room now, which is odd since normally I’m happy to have some time to myself. Now, I want company. Oh well, it’ll pass by itself in a day or two, probably.

Anyway, yes, there’s my update. There’s been a lot of interesting developments back here in Kelownaland lately, too, it seems. Some things I can’t talk about because I’m not technically supposed to even know. And Danny apparently has gotten all popular and attractive lately. Oh, that kid, gettin’ all the boys to like him. It’ll be entertaining to see how that all turns out, if nothing else.

Well, it’s officially one day left until Kel and I head off to Edmonton for the rest of break. So exciteddddddd! Only definite plans so far are the waterpark, Galaxyland, and I think it’s now called Ed’s Rec Room (an arcade), as well as dinner with my Auntie Sheri and the rest, and probably a night drinking. And we might go to a strip club just to spite Amber, but I doubt that. I don’t really wanna spend money on that.

Drama between those two has been heating up (again) and it seems Kel may finally be at his breaking point, so to speak. He’s said he doesn’t think they’ll still be together after he and I get home, and that he’ll just give her Valentine’s Day, at least. Not sure if that’s still how he feels or if it was just a sorta heat-of-the-moment feeling (or heat-of-the-day, as it was) and he’ll just forget about it, or if he’ll actually do it, but we shall see. I kinda hope he does, just because she’s a nice enough girl alone, but she’s way too goddamn clingy and it even annoys me, and I’m not even the one dating her. It’s like Natalie all over again, only less know-it-all.

I have a feeling if he does dump her, she’s somehow going to figure I have something to do with that decision, based on timing if nothing else. Which I wouldn’t really care about if I didn’t need to work with her. >_< Could be awkward times ahead, my friends. Awkward times ahead.

Anyway, tomorrow he’s just spending the night for sake of ease of morning travel, and so we’re probably gonna have a videogame/movie night of some sort. Which is pretty much every time we get together, but whatever. A minor detail. And speaking of movies, I just downloaded and watched the first Land Before Time movie, and it is still fucking awesome. It was so sad when Littlefoot’s mommy died! ;_;

I’ve also been on a stand-up comedy binge lately, for some strange reason, so I’ve been watching Margaret Cho and Billy Connolly via Youtube, and been having a good chuckle in the process. Those two are pretty much amazing. They need to do more stuff, purely for my own enjoyment, of course.

Uh, what else…? I guess I got and defeated a cold over the course of three or four days. It didn’t even really phase me, just gave me a runny and slightly congested nose for a couple days. Back to normal now, just in time. I credit hugging my teddy while I sleep. <3

Well, it’s been almost two weeks, and not a lot has happened, but I figure I’ll update anyway. We went to Chris’ new place (Chi-Fu Chris, not FINA or Vancouver Chris) for a gathering thing, which was pretty fun, though it involved some battle wounds and violent card games. I like his place. We should go there more often.

I’ve recently started playing Eternal Sonata again. God damn I forgot how pretty that game is, and how much I like Chopin’s music. <3 I’m going to need to cut back soon, though, since I want to try to get some of the work I need finished for after reading break done THIS week, so I can enjoy my trip to Edmonton more.

On that note, the confirmed dates are the 17th – 21st. $460 later, I’ve bought the plane tickets and we’ll be heading out there for good times. Galaxy Land and the Waterpark and the arcade and whatever else we can think of await! Soooooo excited.

Kel and I have both started working out more regularly again (i.e. pretty much daily, as opposed to every week and a half or so like we slipped to) and it’s pretty nice. I’d forgotten how much I enjoy it, in spite of how much work it is, and I can already see minor improvements overall, which is encouraging. Depending on the exercise and the muscles, I can use anywhere from 15 lbs to 45 lbs, which is more than I could before. (Before, it was more like 10 lbs to 30 lbs.) Biggest issue (or, weakest muscle, in other words) is my triceps, because I’ve had twiggy arms for a long time as it is, and that muscle especially got rare use. So it leads to rather annoying problems like not being able to do more push-ups because my arms can’t do any more, even though my chest could probably still do almost double what I’ve already done. Oh well, something to work on. It’ll even out in time.

And my mommy surprised me with new shoes today, so I don’t have to spend the money myself. :3

Hm… oh, and Alex finally got on Accutane, after having to try a whole bunch of other stuff he didn’t want to bother with. Not that that matters to any of you, but I’m pretty happy for him. His acne has been as bad as mine was, and I went on the same medicine and it worked very well for my. Now I rarely have more than one or MAYBE two pimples, if that, unless I’m really stressed and so on. It’s gonna be good once his treatment is finished.

And that’s all she wrote. I’m off to bed now, probably gonna be playing a nocturne over and over in my head. Wheeee.

So. Over the past 4 months of school, I’ve read a lot of holocaust literature. Specifically:

• Survival in Auschwitz
• Briar Rose
• Maus I
• Maus II
• The Sunflower
• Death Dealer
• And Peace Never Came
• Lost
• Losing the Dead

I know it’s awful of me to feel this way, but after this many books (easily over 1000 pages total), I’m really getting sick of Jewish people. I know it was a horrific event and a lot of people suffered and have stories to tell, but because of this overload of Holocaust literature in a short amount of time, I just want to stop hearing about it. <.<

Edmonton is about 99% sure to go. Just need to make certain we both get the time off. Basic plans are already set, and plane tickets got even cheaper, so that’s a bonus. We should be staying with my Auntie Sheri (the one who yodels at hobos when she’s drunk), and we’ll take the car my Oma has at my Auntie Boo’s(1) house. We’ll go to the waterslides and the amusement part at WEM, and probably do some shopping there, just because it’s WEM, and also hit Reds and who knows what else. Probably also visit Calvin for a day or so, just because we can, and maybe go out with a couple other friends I have there.

On a related note, I thought Amber wouldn’t be able to come because she’s in school. Turns out, though, she got her credits early so she can graduate early, and is done come this Thursday. However, she is still not coming. Why? Because Kelvin doesn’t want her to. She isn’t even aware of the plans because Kel knows the kind of fuss she’ll put up, and I think he’s probably not telling her until after Valentine’s day, two days before we leave, so the tickets will be bought and it’ll be too late. That in and of itself is going to go badly, since she already doesn’t trust me alone with him when it’s just at one of our houses, let alone in different city. But he also gets to try to explain that she can’t come specifically because he doesn’t want her to. I’m pretty sure there’s absolutely no way that’s going to go well. And I’m also pretty sure it’s going to somehow be at least partially my fault in her mind, which will lead to some awkward lunch breaks at work. But we’ll see.

I’m planning to buy M.A.G. on Tuesday with my Futureshop gift cards, because it looks pretty fucking awesome. I’m not normally a huge FPS person, but this is 256 people online at one time in each game, no computers. So you’re constantly going to be fighting other people and trying to outsmart them, which will make for an actual challenge. I have yet to come across a video game AI that I can’t outsmart most of the time, but actual people can be really crafty. Gonna be some good times. Of course, this means I’m going to need to read my ass off and get ahead so I can spare time to play at all, especially since projects are going to be coming up as well soon. But I think I can do it, so we’ll see. If not, then I’ll always be able to just put it down and come back later. I’m excited to play with a bunch of the guys from work, though.

I’m on a bit of a Hana Pestle stint right now. Not sure why. But goddamn, does my hand search for your hand in a dark room.